Hormones, hormones, hormones. I don't care who you are, if you have had a baby EVER, then your hormones have gone out of whack and, if they're anything like mine, most likely will never fully go back. As an emotional woman, I will cry about just about anything. However, I have narrowed down my giant list and determined the most common causes, that my husband will never fully understand, of my complete loss of emotional control. I think many of you fellow moms can relate and many of you dads that might read this can nod in agreement and privately laugh at us later. Reason 1- My babies are so beautiful.
Everyone can easily relate to my first 2 reasons. Parenting is the most difficult job I have ever had to do, but when I look at my babies I can truly think of nothing that is more beautiful than their faces looking up at me.
Reason 2- My babies are growing up so fast.
Again, easily relatable. Why does time have to move so quickly? I feel as though I was just at the hospital birthing our 2nd child and here it is, nearly 4 months later and she is a whopping 13 pounds already. What the heck?
Reason 3- My babies hate me.
Those moments when you feel like you can not please any of your children are some of the worst. Just today our baby started teething (ugh, here we go) and our toddler was throwing things at me during her rebellion against naptime. I couldn't help but wonder, "why do they all hate me?" Of course I know, okay hope, that this is not true. But these moments, especially when they occur in the middle of the night, could cause anyone to shed a tear.
Reason 4- My babies love me.
I might have the most verbal toddler on the planet (proud speech pathologist mom over here) and just today she came up to me and said "Mom! Guess what? I love you!" Tears. For. DAYS. Those moments when my heart feels so full it could burst make all of these other reasons oh, so worth it.
Reason 5- Everyone hates sleep.
We've all been there. Why in the world aren't kids more tired at night time? I spent TWO hours just yesterday trying to convince my toddler to go down for a nap. I'd be lying if I didn't mention that I even bribed her with a new pair of shoes (my child is ALL girl). She finally caved...and I ordered the damn shoes. Nights where the entire family is just awake because no one will sleep are the hardest. Exhaustion tends to get the best of me and I'll admit, some nights silent tears just roll right out.
Reason 6- I'm so HANGRY.
Every. Single. Thing. that I have, our toddler thinks that she needs to have too. If, for some reason, say the baby needs my attention, I have not had lunch yet and even think about making myself a sandwich, guess who else needs one too? You guessed it, the toddler. Needless to say, I have had many a late meal wherever I can work it in, either at bedtime or in secret, in an effort to not feed our toddler her 5th dinner. If I wait just long enough, my hunger turns to "hanger" and then sh*t gets real...and by real I mean real dramatic.
Reason 7- My clothes may never fit again.
Time moves so quickly when you have a little one; however, time does NOT move quickly when you are working and waiting for your post-baby weight to vanish. I have tried my pre-baby jeans on at least 3 times since having our 2nd child and let me just say, yikes! Although completely normal, it doesn't make it any easier to deal with the feeling that you are just plain obese.
Reason 8- And there it is...another gray hair.
Hormones are the devil. Prior to baby #1, I had the most beautiful brunette hair with not a gray hair in sight. After bring baby #1 in to the world, and turning the big 3-0, gray hairs appear to pop of daily. I can't help but be depressed over my fading beauty, especially when my pants don't fit.
Reason 9- I have no idea what is going on outside of this house.
As a mom who works full-time, I do have the opportunity to interact with adults on the daily. However, I also work in a school which allows me to experience stay-at-home mommyhood in the summer. This past summer I would wake-up, grab a cup of coffee and flip on the news. Approximately 20 seconds later, our toddler would remind me that Mickey Mouse Clubhouse was on. Anything important that happened this summer, there is a large chance that I found out about it several weeks later. That disconnected feeling can be so tough; but it's also hard to find the time to come up for air when you're always on the go. Any non-moms who may read this, if you have the time you should call your mom friends to catch-up, especially the ones who stay home. I know it would mean a lot to them.
Reason 10- When in God's name is my husband going to be home?
Staying home in the summer and always being the first one home (with the kiddos) at the end of the work day, I experience this feeling on the daily. Is it just me or is that one hour before your partner comes home the slowest hour of the entire day? And by slow I mean it feels like it is more like 10 hours. The dinner hour is already a hectic one at our house with a hungry toddler and a baby trying to stock up on feedings before bed so getting a text saying "I might be a little late" can set off even the sanest of mothers.
Reason 11- Watching my husband be a dad. Seriously, I can't handle the sweetness.
And then there's this. Watching our girls love on their daddy and him always playing the role of prince in a house full of princesses is remarkable and something I wouldn't trade in for anything in the world.
So pour yourself a glass of vino and have yourself a good cry if you need it mama! You are not alone.